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Thursday, February 23, 2006


cheer up, veron!@3:55 PM

The brightest future will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

posted this verse cos i think it sounds nice. but honestly i dun really agree to it. i dun believe in forgetting our past. i think that our past is capable of shaping out a better future for us. ppl should really reflect upon and learn from their past, good or bad, cos the memories are really valuable. yes, we shouldnt cling on to those pass failures and heartaches and keep lamenting abt them over n over again. but on the other hand, i wouldnt want to let go of them and throw them away. maybe i'll jus locked them up into one corner of my mind and jus go on with life, no point wasting my life away over horrible experiences. once in a while, its quite meaningful to take them out, go through them and laugh over your stupid decisions or silly behaviours and sompa to urself not to repeat them again. i believe, for a human to be completely human, his memories must consist of both pleasant and unpleasant ones.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.


such a common phrase. so easy to understand. so easy to tell others. but how many actually live by this verse and make the most out of every situations? take me for example, i hav almost everything, health, loved ones, friends, an education, adequte sleep and food and more and more. wad is there to complain abt? wad is lacking in my life? wads wrong with my life? nothing.

by right, i should be very content with my life in this peaceful and flourishing Singapore.

its time i do some self-reflection.


**One minute of silence for the late Mr S Rajaratnam, who is largely responsible for the prosperity of Singapore today.


{until tomorrow}

Tuesday, February 21, 2006


f**ked up day@6:31 PM

today's kinda shit. had no idea how it happened but i just ended up quarrelling with everyone at home, right in the MORNING!! wad a way to start my day. feeling so pissed and indignant. aiya wadeva. i jus cant seem to understand them and they jus dun get my point. wads there to talk about actually? when i dun talk, they say i dun talk, i dun explain and i dun communicate. when i start talking, we'll end up shouting at each other.

and that sister of mine is getting on my nerves.

whatever.

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somehow i feel so stressed up. i hav no idea y. my friend asks me why do i look so stressed, so serious, omg i totally do not know!! they say i should smile more.

ya.....ok *SMILES*, happy??

oh pls this is so dumb.

i jus dun feel like smiling
i jus dun hav the mood to joke
i dun see wads wrong with myself
i jus cant seem to understand wads so funny
i think u're damn childish
i'm so sick of u
i cant stand u anymore
i wan to get away from u
i wan to be alone

its best if u dunno that i'm talking abt u


{until tomorrow}

Friday, February 10, 2006


committments and committments and committments@8:16 PM

sometimes i think that life is so complicated and busy with soo many committments in our lives. we hav to deal with so many things and with so little time. more often than not, we are living for others and not ourselves. some may think that that is life, we jus hav to accept it and learn to live with our committments.

a few days ago, my friend was very depressed and exhausted at having to juggle with so many things in her life. family problems, cca trainings take up alot of her time causing her sch work to suffer as well as problems with bf. she wanted to quit her cca and yet faces many difficulties.

a few days ago she asked me,"veron, would u quit ur cca if u were in my situation?"
frankly speaking, i dun think i'll quit my cca jus becos its stressful and takes up alot of my time. i mean, when i agreed join in the first place i should hav expected and accepted it. maybe its my character, but i hate to be seen as a quitter. i'll hang on. i'll commit. since the responsibilities are given to me, i make sure i fulfil them. cos i noe it'll end, soon. and i'll be proud of myself for accomplishing that. worse comes to worst, i'll step down as exco.

"so it means u dun mind if u were jus an ordinary member?"
no, i mind. haha. i'm the type who wants to be involved. call me kpo or wad lah, but thats jus me. i wouldnt be content jus listening to others and following them. lol. i'm not ambitious. i jus like to be part of it. =)

"veron, wad would u do if u had to choose between alex and odac one day?"
definitely alex. yes, i know i hav my responsibilities, but i'm more 'heavy colour, light friend'. lol. but i seriously hope that i will never hav to make such a decision, its too pressurising.

now, i hav the best of all worlds, i am happy and contented. hee maybe jus need to work more on studies, but i can do it!

to my fren: i noe u'll not read this, but pls stop giving urself so much pressure and come to a wise decision soon k. all problems in this world can be solved. =D


{until tomorrow}

Tuesday, February 07, 2006


eventful, eventful, eventful@10:00 PM

CNY was great! Nice to meet up with my dear cousins, good that i can wear my new clothes, best part was the ang paos. quite happy with my harvest this yr, but shall not reveal how much i collected. hehe. actually hav you guys ever wondered why we hav to wear new clothes for cny? my mum came up (i dunno whether its true or she made it up) with this logic to explain the reasons when i was grumbling that i dun hav new clothes or cant find new clothes for cny. lol.
mum (in chinese): in the past ah when ppl were poor, they couldnt afford nice and new clothes at other times of the yr mah, so during cny they hv the tradition of buying new clothes once a yr lor. but u young ppl these days ah, keep buying new clothes now and then, so wad for buy new clothes for cny leh?? makes no difference mah...

ppl...u tell me...wads the aim behind my mum's explanation? lol...
but wadeva the case, i still bought my new clothes. yay!

last saturday went out with kes and gen. went shopping....again!! hahah. its perfectly alright for girls to shop at any time of the yr ok, before or after cny. hahah. i think i bought a pair of ear studs, an ebase top and denim shorts from b.u.m. but i still need alot alot more. hmm......nvm i believe i'll get them one day. hahah.
oh ya alex went for bike quest on saturday night and his team got third!! yay!! now he can shove the trophy right into nordin's face and say, ''there!!! see!!! trophy lehhhhhhh!!!!!" hahahahahhaha......ok i'm lame. but frankly speaking, nordin's face is too cheap to shove the trophy into. LOL!! ok not funny next....

sunday went sentosa with jamie and shann to support alex, ming song n jon for surf and sweat! kinda pathetic to see that tpjc odac has only 3 participants and 3 supporters when the entire cjc odac came down to root for their fellow odacians. nvm......one day.......one fine day.......we'll be like them. hopefully. not my batch though. hahahha!! when the competiton started, the three of us were damn bad lah....we kept laughing at alex they all. cos the way they 'surfing' (erm.....paddling) was super funny!! but in the end i did cheer and encourage them k. i not so bad one lah. hahah. after the competition, we went to collect the goodies bags and slacked around the beach. around dinner time went habour front yoshi to dine and after that went to meet my parents. hmm that day not bad lah, managed to get abit of tan, a little tiny bit only. and oh ya!!, poor alex kept dozing off and i found out smth funny abt the way he sleep. hahaaha... =X

haiz......i need to lose weight. i need to brush up on my studies. i need more sleep. i need more time. i need more money. i need more space. i need more strength.


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