@1:58 PM
I watched as baby darius drifted off to sleep. His big round eyes slowly closing and his little mouth let off a tired yawn. I can tell that baby darius was comfortably and safely falling asleep, tucked in my arms.
How wonderful.
That feeling is really amazing when I made darius sleep yesterday. Carrying him in my arms with his head resting on my shoulders, gently rocking my body back and forth and petting him on his thighs, that was all it takes to let him know that it was safe to sleep.
I was somewhat excited when darius actually fell asleep. My first time making a baby sleep! And I quite enjoy the moment even though my arms eventually felt tired and my back was aching a bit. Luckily mummy came into the room and offered to take darius from me so that she can put him on his bed. Then, I kept staring at him while he was sleeping soundly. (ok shit i sound like a pedophile now. eh thats not true, he's really damn cute, even when asleep.)
Ahhhh i miss darius now! Miss playing silly games with him, miss his megawatt smile, miss his baby smell, miss his incomprehensible baby talk, miss his attention-seeking acts, miss everything about him! even when he poo and cry and vomit his milk out. =D
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December is coming to an end soon. Lotsa stuff happened this month. Like duh, it's the HOLS leh of course must be happening la!
Being the emotional me, I tend to put my feelings into the things I do or the things I encounter. And so, certain things that probably seem normal to others, may seem like a big fuss to me. Yea, I get sad easily. Especially over things that matters to me.
Wee keat said that sometimes, I try too hard to please. I agree. I can't take failures, I can't take cannot for an answer. When I expect something to happen, I will make it happen, even though I may complain and grumble and bitch about it. Why? I dont like to feel or I dont like others to think that I dont have the ability to make things happen. Many times, I feel that I have zero self-confidence. I care too much about what others think. I can't be like wee keat and go "fuck what other people think la".
So for this Christmas, if santa is real, I wish for more personality, and more strength.
Merry Christmas everyone. Have a blessed xmas, filled with all things bright and lovely.
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until tomorrow}
@7:39 PM
Presenting to you the VIPs in my room!
VIP = Very Important Possession
I'm so in love with the both of them!
First up - My bedsheet+comforter set!
Bought the bedsheet set from JP at a discounted price of 70%!!!! Its from Sintex, original price cost more than 100 bucks but I got it for less than $30! Is that value-for-money or what?? Im a sucker or anything thats on SALES, plus a little bit of persuasion from friends and salesperson, my wallet's out. Oops =P
sleeping with sweet dreams every night...
But seriously I really like the colour of the bedsheet - nude, cause it looks very back-to-nature and comfy. The comforter was from the Robinsons' sales which I blogged about a few posts back. Really love the comforter too. It's pretty and keeps me warm at night. :) There's actually a matching bedsheet set that comes along with the comforter but I didnt bring it into hall. Shall use it next!
Second VIP! And a very very very delicious-looking one!
Tadah!!! My Paper Apple!
I fell in love with it the moment I saw it on display. Asked for the price and the lady told me it was $9.90. I thought it was quite costly so I walked away. But after some time, I went back to the shop and bought this darling. I just couldn't resist the temptation!
my paper apple - normal-looking when unopened.
opened up - isn't it pretty? :)
trying to pose for a 'smelling-the-apple look' but turns out funny.
i love how it looks like a fan when half-opened.
would you like a piece of apple?
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Weekends at home in a nutshell:
- bought my epilator (like FINALLY :D yay!)
- watched tv. (you have no idea how DEPRIVED i was in hall during the exams period)
- eat. i always over-eat at home. too much snacks lying around. not good.
- did everything but study for my last paper. at home where got study mood leh you tell me?
- made an impulse decision to go Hong Kong(!!!) with my aunt and cousins despite it being very near to HO. parents kept psycho-ing me to go too. lol. kinda regretted after the air tix was booked but I know I WILL regret if I dont go hk. well, things will always work out, I believe.
- went tampines regional library to study for my last paper but I only managed to complete 2 lectures because that place was freaking noisy with inconsiderate uncles and aunties and i swear i will never go there to study again. ever!
- caught the movie 2012 with wee keat after studying in the library. good movie, provided you leave your brain outside the cinema before you go in.
- bought my BB cream from faceshop. living without a sunscreen for the past few days was like living like a vampire. horrible X 37463791698126977 times.
Today:
decided to take MC for my paper tomorrow.
the first time, very first time in my life as a sudent, to skip a paper. I've never missed any exam before, not even a test, so making this decision was a rather difficult one for me.
It was a period of internal struggle, followed by trying to study for what seemed like an endless amount of lecture notes, then fall into despair knowing I could never finish it by 9 a.m tomorrow, chiding myself for going home over the weekends and not focusing on my last paper, asking my friends for their advice and suggestions, procrastinating again, and finally, I made the ultimate decision - To take MC.
Hopefully, this is the best decision for now, and that it is for the sake of an 'A' grade when I take the paper again next year. damn. i feel really guilty since making the decison and I kept thinking if I should attempt to chiong finish my notes and see if I can make it for the paper tomorrow. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Veronica Leong please don't regret your decision!!!
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until tomorrow}
