miss kpo
*
3 droplets
*
i am not the best
*
am i the worst?
*
this feeling again
*
i know my weakness
*
but why this awkward feeling when i'm told abt it
*
or is it the person who told me about it
*
i'm not angry
*
i'm not fine
*
i understand
*
i'm confused
*
i dunno what to do
*
helpless
*
deceiving myself
*
i can't change myself, as always
*
so easy to say, so difficult to do
*
f**king useless person
*
a whirlwind of mixed emotions
*
while it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress.
*
paradox
*
Stamimania was the one which reignited my love for odac, yet Stamimania was the one which made me lost interest in odac.

{until tomorrow}




Today stayed back after school to support kes for the 800m heats. But wait until around 4pm, it started to rain. Wth lah. Waste time only. That time gen 200m heats also like that, wait until around 4pm they cancalled the heats cos too little ppl join. Kns...stayed back for nothing. Haiz... But what to do, we are friends what, its only right that i go down to give my support. =D

But actually the waiting is not that bad lah, had the honour of hearing kes and jieyi playing a duet on the piano. sooooo nice!! I really envy them for being able to play such nice tunes on the piano, really regret for not insisting on learning the piano when i was young. All of them are like so talented lah, so unlike me. Honestly I envy kes the most, she excels in running, studies also quite good and is musically inclined. And Jieyi also can play the piano very well, she can really sing too! Ahhhh then the mention of gen - pro in sprinting, badminton and taekwondo. Why issit that all of them have their forte while I am just plain and common jane???????

Probably, maybe, perhaps I also have my own forte, my own talents. Just that I have yet to learn to appreciate myself. Many a times, we tend to be able to see the good of others, and fail to recognise our own talents. Or we just feel that we are not good enough.

Hmm from now onwards, i must think that I AM THE BEST!!! LOL. I mustn't feel sad or depressed (too sad or depressed instead =P) when others surpass me. I must accept reality. I must make good use of my current abilities and excel beyond my own limits!! Towards others that excel in their own forte, i shall give my fullest support and appreciate having talented friends like them!

Go Veron!!! YOU ARE THE BEST!

{until tomorrow}




So many competitions are going on around school these days. So many different talents doing what they are best at, meeting other different talents from other schools to pit against each other. Some win, some lose, thats expected and is part and parcel of every sportsman's life. Having been invloved in a little little bit of competitive sports before, i understand the feeling of training so hard all day long just to lose badly at the end. Sometimes i wonder, is it because i did not train hard enough, i dont have the talent, or that others are just too good?

haha but most times, i learn to get over it soon. I dont regret training hard, i dun regret putting in effort, i dun regret sacrificing my time. because i know myself. i know that i'm not a quitter, i know whats good for myself, i know that i will regret if i only put in half the effort. I want to look back at my memories and tell myself that my current achievements are all because of the effort i've put in. I want to learn from experiences.

I believe, for every person, it is very important to be content. Content with your life, looks and abilities. Know your own strengths and limitations, and do not be disgraced with yourself. Must have self-confidence. Of course, wanting to improve and to be better is a good thing. But must give yourself time and do not be impatient. You've already taken the first step by wanting to excel further, but its impossible to see results when you've only just started. You know you have the ability, you know you are better than many others, but u just need more determination and at the right time, things will be better yea.

In this world there are many who suceed, many who fail, and many who just dwells in the average state. Its so miserable and torturous to keep comparing with others. True, comparision drives people to do better but its unhealthy when one becomes obessed with it. One cant be possibly be the best and most outstanding at everything. Even if u think u are already the best, there'll be another person who comes along with even greater ability. The only thing one can do is keep on improving, yet remaining content with whatever we possess. Thats my main point. Haha. Cause nothing is perfect in this world, right?

This blog entry goes out to all who thinks that u are insignificant in life and is unable to excel in whatever u do. You are definitely NOT insignificant. You may not be able to make an impact globally, but your presence can change the lives of the people around you. Most importantly, must love yourself and be content, and dont make decisions that you will regret! =D

{until tomorrow}




i truely have no idea how to start this post. there's just so much events and emotions inside of me that i dont know which to blog about. it may seem weird, although i know that there has been alot of stuffs going on or that i wanted to blog about, but now when i finally want to blog them down, i cant remember most of them. guess thats the result of infrequent blogging. *shrugs* lazy to blog too.

Trying my best to recall,
after the march hols, went back to school - study, cca, getting scolded, study, cca, getting scolded, study, cca, getting scolded, stu..... i could repeat this for hours man. cos my life is jus too routine. everyday, every single damn day, is an exact repeat of the previous day. sure, i'm aware that many ppl are going thru this same whole thing with me and they are hating it as well, but i really really really yearn for some excitment in my life.

Probably people will question, isn't my cca exciting with so much happenings? Hmm....ya probably, but.....nvm shall not touch on that, perhaps i'm slightly more negative. sometimes to me, success doesnt mean mission/aim accomplished.

These days, school life has been exceptionally boring with the emphasis on studies and attire. I admit, the attire of tpjcians are really not that perfect. But does she has to kick up such a big fuss over it? I mean, what is the problem here now??? Since they like to compare us with other JCs academically, lets compare attire-wise - which JC stresses that their students' uniform must be allllll the way tucked in, girls must wear long skirts, skirt must be at waist level, blouse must only cover half of upper body and no drawstrings allowed? I understand perfectly well that we are studying in a school, and there must be discipline, but not to that extent! Just be more flexible with us, we happy, you happy, everybody happy! And i dun see the link between looking neat (ya right neat indeed) and achieving good results. eventually, people might call us the toot JC with poor results. haiz althou i complain but i have nothing against the school, really, except maybe her.

Oh well these days have been in a quite foul mood. Dear has been faithfully by my side to share my sorrows. Thanks! lol...and thanks for accompanying me to shop today.

shopping lifts my spirit =)

{until tomorrow}