Fat
Lazy
Useless
Spendthrift

Guess this four words sums up my character. And it actually came up from someone who's very close and dear to me.

Maybe he's joking, as always. hahaha. so funny.


















its very hurting to know tt i'm someone like that in the eyes of the person i love.
in my opinion, he's the best guy a girl could ever had. he's a filial son, a loyal friend and he loves me. i dont care what he does, how he looks like or what friends he mixes with. i love him for who he is, i am proud of everything he does or accomplishes, be it big or small. i never thought that he wasn't good enough for me because i can't ask for anything else from him. He may not be the perfect guy for every girls out there but at least to me, he is.

{until tomorrow}




Tears of Joy. I first experienced that kind of emotion on wednesday, 23-01-08, at HO. It felt good, really good. it was an uncontrolled behaviour, i wanted to smile but i couldn't, i just kept weeping. the feeling was pure happiness, it was heavenly. I didnt wnt it to stop.

But it did.

At that precise moment, it felt like my happiness was snatched away right before my eyes. As if i was being injected by gloom and darkness until i cant feel anything around me. It was a situation thats hard to describe, not in words. After the darkness, came the disappointment, the embarrassment, then the anger. Why anger? Because of the unprofessionalism, insensitivity and irresponsible nature of some emcees. Some unknown emcees from god-knows-where just crushed the hopes of an entire team with just a few words.

What they have done, i will never forgive and i will never forget.

So, the results? We didnt win. But we didnt lose, not at all. We didnt get the trophy but we got the hearts of the spectators. We didnt get the ranking but we got the spirit. We didnt get the fame but more importantly, we got each other.

The seniors may have left, but they will always be there for us. Many may have left the training team, but the Spectrum family is always growing. I may only be with the team for a few months, but in just a mere few months, i can understand why the seniors feel so sad after their last HO. The bonding they have with each other, the attachment they feel for the team, the memories they shared and the love they have for cheer are things they will never give up in exchange for anything. It is this deep passion that touches me and makes me want to be part of this family. I do not know where i will be a few years down the road, but i know that i will still want to cheer.

I'm very proud to be in Team Spectrum.
We play together, train together, laugh together, cry together and cheer together.

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Finally i got the rest of the chinatown performance pics. I really really love some of the pics!









Okay, thats all for HO for the time being. Haven got the pics from the rest yet. Got lots more pics of our post-HO party back in hall, but then my make-up was already gone cos i cried like siao. lol...

{until tomorrow}




I dunno on what note should i start my post with.

A few weeks ago, I was very happy with my life, i am loving every aspect of it and everything happening around me, it will be even better if i have more time for him thou. hee. I still am happy now, not that i dont love my life anymore,

BUT

i had to fall sick. shit.
and its the ultimate 4-in-1 deadly combo: flu+cough+headache+sore throat. SHIOK!
luckily theres no fever tts major enough to detect, yeah, "lucky".

AND

i hurt my back. double shit.
HO is like TOMORROW and i cant afford to let my back hinder the team. omgomgomgggggg. =( i guess i'll be taking painkillers to numb the pain temporarily. heck it man, its like for only 2 days.
1.5 days, to be exact =)

come on veron! let the adrenaline wash away your pain and pump you up with energy!!
i really cant wait for HO to come tomorrow. its like i've been training so so so so so hard for this day. for so many weeks, the one thing that i've been most preoccupied with is cheer training. thats wad has been taking up most of my time, depriving me of most of my sleep, giving me the most worry, making me skip lessons, exhausting me out, making me cry, making me fall sick, depriving me of the chance to spend time with my frens, with him and my family.

yet, its what i've been looking forward to for most nights even thou i am tired, its wad making me enjoy myself, its something i feel that i have a passion for. and thats enough to carry me through all these days.

since the day i joined Spectrum, i didnt dare to tell my frens or relatives that i am a cheerleader. its strange how i used to be afraid of what or how people will think of me, or of cheerleaders, even thou i am fully aware that what they think are just stereotypes. i somehow felt that my choice will not be supported, judging from what some of my own hall mates think. it felt so difficult to try to explain to them that cheerleading isn't what they think it is. its felt so depressing when they go "huh? why you join?"

for a moment, i felt pai seh of my decision. but moments later, i felt that they shld be the ones to feel pai seh for judging us. they totally have no idea wad the sports is about - the professional aspect, the humane aspect and the mental aspect. let me tell you something, we are NOWHERE any inferior compared to other sports, and we do NOT deserve any less respect than other sports.

i told myself tt i will not tell my frens that i am a cheerleader until i have accomplished something. HO is tomorrow and no, i have not accomplished anything in physical terms yet, but i realised what i have gained so far is much more than just superficial medals or trophies, i gained a whole team of supportive, caring and sincere friends.

I know this sounds cheesy but i dont care, here goes:
I AM A CHEERLEADER!! =D

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That night i was super happy. Guess it was the adrenaline rush. That was the day i hurt my back in the morning and it was damn painful. but during the performance, i couldn't feel anything at all. i didnt even realise i was in pain. hahaha. so cool.

after the performance, we went to Food street to eat and i was super happy. and you know i like to eat when i am happy (and i like to eat when i am sad. and i like to eat when i am sian.), so we ordered alot alot of those heaty stuff like ngoh hiang, fried kway teow, popiah, rojak, ah balling, blah blah and i just kept eating. and when i reached home, thats it, i felt abit unwell already. and the next day i'm like totally knocked out. guess its due to the exhaustion+shouting+heaty food combi. hahahha. at least i had FUN before i fell sick =P

i cant wait to receive the reat of the photos from the others!!

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On Sunday, the next day after chinatown, i went out with hall 13 peeps to celebrate ade's and ter's birthday. We went to Cafe 211 at Holland V. It was a rather cosy place with nice ambience, great for couples, for large groups also can. I was feeling sick and had no appetite so i only had salad and soup of the day. Salad disappointed me =( but i guess the food tt the others ordered was not bad, since they didnt complain. except that the portion was a tad too small for those monster-eaters. lol. they went for round 2.

didnt took much pics that night cos i was looking very pale and shag. cannot move properly, cannot eat properly, cannot think properly. damn miserable.

that night after reaching hall, the rest decided they wanted to disturb ade by blindfolding her and leaving her at Nanyang house. the road up to Nanyang house was damn scary lor!! like some haunted house. it gave me the creeps even thou i was in the car. poor ade was left there blindfolded while the rest hide at some corners to watch her. damn funny. after that we went back to hall and the guys came up with crazy ideas again. lol. its not a good idea to offend them when your birthday is nearing...

anyway, i'm so glad the crazy hall days are back =D

{until tomorrow}




Great. First day of school today, which implies....holiday's OVER!!!! boo!
back to studying, waking up at 7.15a.m for 8.30a.m lessons, sleeping in boring (okay...ALL) lectures, chiong-ing to print lecture notes at the last minute, secretly praying that the tutor will not call me to present when i didnt do my tutorial, rushing lab reports, rotting in hall eating cup noodles myself when no one is free to have lunch or dinner with me. WOW life's fun!

its okay...really. i've already survived through my first semester, its just another sem, and another and another and another until i graduate. lol...

at least i had a really niceeeeee holiday! thailand trip, shopping, comms ball, cycling at ecp, xmas gathering, new yr's chalet, meeting up with my frens and slacking at home =D

speaking of frens, i still have yet to meet my darling senses....when will we ALL be free? sigh...girls i miss u all soooo much! well, for this week my time table is still considered quite slack so i guess i'll try to meet them this weekend, hopefully!

ohya!! i got Alvin and the Chipmunks OST! super cute!!! makes me smile whenever i listen to it... =) makes me look forward to the next christmas...

{until tomorrow}




HAPPY NEW YEAR MY DARLING BLOG!!
as well as to everyone =)
and of course, Jinx!

This new year is very special!
ehh.......why ah?
becos I CUT MY HAIR SHORT!
yay! new year new hairstyle! hehehe...
and the best part is that i like my short hair, and i didnt regret cutting it short =)



okay so after cutting my hair at century square, i went to meet siyi, sera and huiling at cafe cartel for high tea. we all had cakes. my truffle cheesecake is gooooood! but wads better is meeting up with the girls and having a nice catch-up. i realised many many things have changed since we last met, the things around us and the people around us, they're not the same as before anymore. the catching-up session was really short cos most of them were late and i had to rush off to meet the hall 13 people for a movie. quite disappointed that we didnt talk long enough =(
sera's going back to US again soon and i guess it'll be a long time before we can get to meet up again. awww....its ok, we're still young =D haha...
and i'm so happy cos Sera brought back Victoria's Secret Pyjamas from USA for each of us, so all four of us have the same PJ (but different design). i got the pink one, super cute and girly!! although i dun have the habit of wearing PJ to sleep but i guess i can start now! lol. Sera gave each of us a box of Yatsuhashi cookies from Japan too. although i got the green tea chocolate flavour which i dun really like but i'm still really happy!! plus the box is really really nice and sweet!

okay as i said, i went to meet the hall 13 ppl for movie, Alvin and the chipmunks! its superrrrrrrr uberrrrrrr berrrrrrrry cute!!!! heart-warming and cheery. makes you wan to meet talking chipmunks. lol. and i LOVE the soundtrack! i want it, i want it, i want it!

so after the movie, everyone was hungry. we had dinner and headed to Aranda Country Club. at the chalet there, the girls just rushed towards the bed, jumped onto it and screamed and shouted like some escapees from IMH. i think the guys were freaked out by us and they just closed the door of the bedroom and happily played their playstation in peace.

after awhile, we got bored in the bedroom and we went out to see them play but we got bored again and started to use our toes to pinch the legs of qq and ter. qq is damn meaty, seriously! everytime pinch him can hold alot of meat in between our toes. LOL! super funny to see him get irritated when all 4 girls attack only him and he cant look out for all our legs at the same time.

so in the end the guys bo bian and included us in their games. we played bridge, 99 and drinking goggles up. seriously u cannot play drinking goggles up with slow ppl, they just keep on drinking up and drinking up and drinking up. yin xue and ade just kept losing and kept drinking till their faces, eyes, ears, necks, shoulders and chest were super red! and they kept insisting they were sober and continued to play when we all told them to take a rest. finally we realised that the both of them just couldnt stop giggling and they kept saying "my face very hot" and "my heartbeat very fast".

its quite funny but scary to see them drunk. i guess the feeling of getting drunk is freaking bad when i see how ade is suffering...its miserable. i dun dare to get drunk now. never ever will i. lol. hopefully!

ohya when we were like playing halfway, the guys suddenly went "HAPPY NEW YEAR" and started to shake hands. omg i was damn sad lorrrrrrrrrr!!!! cos i wanted to countdown!!! i want to do the 10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1-HAPPY NEW YEAR thing!! but i didnt had the chance! super disappointed...so when the rest were happily shaking hands, i just counted-down out loudly and everyone though i was crazy. =P i dun care ok, i want to count down. we took alot of photos after that, so fun! i guess i quite like how my New Year Eve and New Year Day was spent =D

new year resolutions???
hahahha whats new please....its the same every year, I want to LOSE weight.
lets see if it can be done, hopefully it wont be repeated next year...hee!

to sum up my very happening new year day, i shall list down my lasts of 2007 and firsts of 2008!
last bus service i took: 291
last cake eaten: Truffle cheesecake (at Cafe Cartel)
last movie i watched: Alvin and the Chipmunks
last public transport i took: Taxi
last meal (dinner) of the year 2007: BK Singles Turkey Bacon Value Meal
last and first persons i was with: Jieying, Adeline, Sirong, Yin Xue, Kah Xian, QQ, Terence, Jia Liang, Shuen Min, Pei Yao, Cong Yan and Lawrence (at Aranda Country Club)
first person whom i talked to on the phone: Wee Keat
first person i see when i wake up: Adeline
first vehicle i sat on: Yin Xue's Mazda 3
first song i heard: Break Away - Kelly Clarkson
first shopping centre i went to: Tampines Mall
first meal (breakfast) of the year 2008: Ya Kun Set C (French toast)

hmm...one rather unauspicious thing that my 2008 started with is that i still owe jieying the movie tix money, and uncle the chalet money. oh no oh no oh no is this a bad sign??? does this mean i'll owe ppl money for the rest of the year?? omg i dun wannnnnnnnnnnnn!!! LOL!

i wanna add another New Year resolution: I want to save more money!

{until tomorrow}