{until tomorrow .

@12:22 AM

going back to hall tonight =(
somehow i feel like i'm in the army. book in every sunday night, book out every friday night. lol. except that i can have nights-off anytime i want =P
haha lame. okay whatever.

haven been home for abt 2 weeks (becos of cherobics la!) and i really miss home so much!! Getting quite sick of hall life more and more lately. true, there's more freedom but there's more independence and responsibility.

in fact, to say there's more freedom isn't quite right too, it depends on which angle you look at it from. for instance, i cannot walk around bra-less everywhere and i need to make sure i dont look like a mad woman when i walk to the ladies every morning. and when i'm sleeping, i have to lock the doors cos i'm scared ppl will suddenly open the door and see my super unglam sleeping pose.

next comes the clothes part. i'm seriously deprived of clothes/bags/shoes/accessories evertime i'm back at home. so when i need to go out on weekends, i always wear the same shoes, carry the same bag, make do with my sis's clothes and go accessory-less and make-up-less. this alone kills my mood of going out. not that i need to dress up to the nines every single time but sometimes i dun even have a decent shorts to match! i can wear my sis's tops but shorts...her butt is smaller than mine!! so sad right...mummy's unfair!!! lol!!

plus, i hate transporting my stuff to and fro hall every single weekend. its so tiring. to have to make sure you dun leave out anything from hall or home e.g. hp charger or notebook adapter cos it will mean i'll be uncontactable for the rest of the week.

and then there's the getting used to two beds issue. i think i'm more used to sleeping on the bed in hall. i've no idea why but everytime i'll have trouble falling asleep when i'm home, and when i wake up, my entire body felt as thou i've been beaten up by someone over the night. prolly its my sis, she secretly beat me up cos i wear her clothes. LOL~ kidding sis!

but then again, i'm always full of contradictions. i'm afriad that i cant get a room next sem. i want a room very badly cos i am very against taking public transport. i hate hate hate squeezing in the bus/mrt for a place just to stand. and standing and squeezing also means part of my body will definitely be in contact with someone else and god knows what he/she had been doing previously!! sometimes, there's this stench which is seriously unbearable! and standing for 2 hrs from tamp to boon lay is gonna drive me crazy. so i'd rather stay in hall than stay at home.

it doesnt mean that i wont complain even after i get a room. NO! i DONT want a triple-sharing room. no no no no no! for whatever reasons be it social or mental or personal, i just refuse to share my room with 2 ppl. i'm happy with just me and my roomie. call me selfish but i'd rather NOT have a decline in price in exchange for my personal space. i really really hope NTU doesn't implement that plan. whoever needs a place to stay in hall, you go work hard for it or just settle ur accomodation urself k? lol... (no offense to anyone)

anyway, i went for the ultimate forget-my-sadness session yesterday: KBOX!!!
singing really can lift my mood now, cos retail therapy doesnt work now. lol. thanks dear for singing whatever songs that i requested for, esp nan yong. haha.
my music player is repeating Xin Bu Liao Qing over and over and over now, i'm very obsessed with this song currently. the lyrics is meaningful, the music very soothing and the feel is very intense deep love. i love.

{until tomorrow}