sometimes i think that life is so complicated and busy with soo many committments in our lives. we hav to deal with so many things and with so little time. more often than not, we are living for others and not ourselves. some may think that that is life, we jus hav to accept it and learn to live with our committments.

a few days ago, my friend was very depressed and exhausted at having to juggle with so many things in her life. family problems, cca trainings take up alot of her time causing her sch work to suffer as well as problems with bf. she wanted to quit her cca and yet faces many difficulties.

a few days ago she asked me,"veron, would u quit ur cca if u were in my situation?"
frankly speaking, i dun think i'll quit my cca jus becos its stressful and takes up alot of my time. i mean, when i agreed join in the first place i should hav expected and accepted it. maybe its my character, but i hate to be seen as a quitter. i'll hang on. i'll commit. since the responsibilities are given to me, i make sure i fulfil them. cos i noe it'll end, soon. and i'll be proud of myself for accomplishing that. worse comes to worst, i'll step down as exco.

"so it means u dun mind if u were jus an ordinary member?"
no, i mind. haha. i'm the type who wants to be involved. call me kpo or wad lah, but thats jus me. i wouldnt be content jus listening to others and following them. lol. i'm not ambitious. i jus like to be part of it. =)

"veron, wad would u do if u had to choose between alex and odac one day?"
definitely alex. yes, i know i hav my responsibilities, but i'm more 'heavy colour, light friend'. lol. but i seriously hope that i will never hav to make such a decision, its too pressurising.

now, i hav the best of all worlds, i am happy and contented. hee maybe jus need to work more on studies, but i can do it!

to my fren: i noe u'll not read this, but pls stop giving urself so much pressure and come to a wise decision soon k. all problems in this world can be solved. =D

{until tomorrow}