{until tomorrow .

@12:52 AM

it has been an overwhelming month. many things had happened. many rather sad events.

i got back most of my prelims results. they suck. did badly for all subjects. compared to the common tests, my results dropped alot. all the bullshit about working harder is crap. my aim was to do better than my common test. i put in alot of effort, really, much more effort than what i did for common test. but so what? i did worse. damn disappointing. maybe i should just count on my luck huh. lol. oh well they said dont give up, just put in more effort and dream big. alright i'll dream BIG:
I WANNA GET A SCHOLARSHIP TO GET INTO MEDICINE!!
everyone roll on the floor and start laughing

i also had my first clubbing experience on the 22nd sept. it was siyi's birthday and she invited me to MOS. it was super dark and noisy inside with all the bright lights shining into your eyes randomly and the music booming out at you as if your heart's gonna jump out. LOL...thats the sua gu (i.e yours truly) view of clubbing. oh and i was wearing my heels and there're so many steps inside and it was so dark and i couldnt see properly and it was so crowded and i was so new to the place and....aiya the point is i fell down lah!! damnnnnnn embarrassing ok!! and the worst thing is, i fell twice. omg! and i still gei kiang pretend to stabalise myself and walked on as if nothing happen. wah piang...
anyway that night was like an orientation to clubbing so didnt drink much and didnt really dance. too pai seh to dance u see. and haha....actually is i dunno how to dance. so most of the time was spent observing ppl dancing, making out on the dance floor, getting drunk and what they wore. here's one of the photo i took that night.

i look kinda extra =P

me, nat, siyi the beautiful birthday lady, melissa, elizabeth

so what's the verdict? hmm....clubbing's not really for me. if u're new to it, make sure u go with someone experienced first to get yourself familirised. the best thing is not to frequent these places so many times.
OH YAH!!! how can i forget to mention my HORRIGIBLE encounter with the bouncer at the entrance!! he bloody hell dont believe that i'm legally eighteen and refuse to believe that i am the person on my ez-link card. he sua gu issit!! jc students of cos still use sec sch ez-link lah!! then started to give me a lecture on bringing my IC to clubs next time in case there are police raids blah blah who will arrest me to the police station and call down my parents all the shit talk. anyway, my IC photo was also taken in secondary. and strangely, he demanded to see my contact lens.
i was like: "my contact lens inside my eye lah!"
him: "where? show me."
me: *pry my eyes open with my fingers* "there! inside lor!"
him: "k lah go in lah but next time bring IC"
hehe....yay! i still got to go in in the end =P

enough of clubbing. this month was also a roller coaster ride for me emotionally. after numerous serious contemplations, made a very heart-wrenching decision. it was quite hurting to all parties involved but yeah, life goes on and i'll move on. =) cos i tell myself that i can.

after prelims i started to slack and relax immediately. haha though i'm not supposed to.
i watched 'Gong', a really nice and funny korea drama. laugh my troubles away~~
i went shopping with gen and kes too. yayness!
and today i went to pasir ris park with jieyi, gen and kes for potluck picnic to celebrate jieyi's bday. it was really nice and enjoyable. facing the sea and running along the beach just brings me away from the hustle and bustle of life. i felt calm and peaceful. after that went to jieyi's house for some mad bonding session and girly talk. *grins* haven indulge myself like this in ages. life's great and meaningful again!!! =D

=DDD finally i completed my entry. yay! i miss longggg entries.
i miss allllllllllllllllllllll my good friends too....

{until tomorrow}